Tuesday, November 14, 2006

No, I'm not pregnant

Needless to say I'm heartbroken and angry and sad. I called my midwife as it's been about 6 months of trying. I'm going in Thursday for bloodwork and an ultrasound to make sure my parts are in working order. I've been crying for two days straight and look like hell. I was extra surprised this time because it's the first month I actually had a good feeling about it all. I'm beginning to realize that I may need to face the fact that I will never give birth again and that makes me extremely sad and very jealous of all the people I know who got preg so easily recently.

I should go write since my novel seems to be the only thing I will be creating this month.



jennifer said...

oh tara honey i am soo sorry! Iknow exactly what you are going through! don't give up! It is soo common to have problem! even after an easy 1st conception! so many new drug and easy fixes! have fiath and know God has a plan in store for you!! please email me if you need advice or just want to talk!

love ya honey!
jennifer(dec dar)

Heater said...

I'm sorry you're having so much trouble.

But I'm glad you're not in the pool of people I seem to be surrounded by lately, which is women who are miscarrying...

I hope your tests can give you some peace of mind.